Kate's Journal

Happy birthday jesus! Oh.... wait..
Why is it the older I get, school work just gets harder and harder to do? I just cleaned the entire house and played with Lucy for like 1/2 hour... all instead of working on my paper.... Why does the fucking library have to be CLOSED today???? Hey, if anyone knows anything I can write 10 pages about the sarcophagus of Junius bassus, let me know.....
Both steve and brendan were gone this weekend, so i had the apartment to myself... went out with the bad movie club (aka me and courtney) to go see "The Prince and Me" on Friday. Saw a preview for the SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS MOVIE in the process.... got into a stupid fight over the phone with brendan when I got back.... got talked into going to the mass art prom last night. All in all an interesting weekend..... I'm freaking out about all the work I have to do... plus something smells like it's burning.....
Brendan gets back tonight.... i hope he's not mad at me anymore. I don't like being angry.

Ok papers. It's go time.

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A. AArRRRRRRrrrr Kelly!

I'M GOING TO FRANCE!!!!!!!!!
I just got the acceptance letter a few days ago.... I'm flying to paris on june 27th I think... then I get to wander around the airport by myself and try to find the bus to pont-aven... woo hoo! I'm really really really excited.. this is going to fucking ROCK!!!

just got back from the gym..... my legs are KILLING me....
I don't get how I can eat right, work out, all that nonsense but still feel like a huge fatass.... I was going to attempt to buy pants again today, but oh yea that's right...NOTHING FUCKING FITS ME!!!!!
ugh.
on the bright side, it was 11 months for me and brendan the other day... yay for us! I wanted to do something really nice for him next month, but I still haven't thought of anything good enough... Last night we tried to go to that show at the Middle East... but once we got there, we saw that the band we wanted to see didn't go on until midnight.... and neither one of us has cab $$ for the way back. Stupid T. So we just left. It was pretty sad. At least we got some shitty pizza out of the deal. :)

If I hear one more phish song, I'm going to jump out the window......

I was so good this morning... woke up, got to class on time... got to work... and completely fucked up 2 paintings in a row that I was trying to finish.... i was so frustrated that i left, and have been here since trying not to think about how much I feel like a failure. For every one good day of painting, i get around 5 days like this... it just makes me wonder if I made the right decision. Art school has just made me feel even more useless and untalented then I felt before, and right now i just feel like giving the fuck up. This is a waste of time. I have nothing to show. As hard as I fucking try i just cannot paint.

YESSSSS!
I got my 2nd letter of recommendation for the France trip today, which I mailed out like 10 minutes after I got it. So now I just have to wait and see what happens.....

Bart: "Dad! You killed zombie Flanders!"
"Homer: "He was a zombie?"

I've spent the past 3 hours finding other things to do but study.
And I can only breathe through one nostril.
Sigh.

But here's a joke!
Q: Why doesn't Micheal Jackson ever win a race?
A: Because he likes to come in a little behind.

Ughhhh that piece of pizza was too big for me.... but it was so tasty....
i'm trying to do the "90/10 diet" just so I can split up what I eat over the course of the day, as opposed to waiting until 6 and eating all night. Plus it's just good to know that I'm not eating too much and all that.
So I just got an e-mail from the Pont-Aven School... they said they got my application, but not my letters of recommendation (Didn't you people read my damn NOTE???!!) So now I'm completely bugging out about getting them in on time. (I have one.... and am keeping my fingers crossed that my teacher will get the other one in by the end of the week...) I have this sinking feeling in the back of my mind that I'm not going to get in, which would be seriously depressing. I WANT TO LEAVE THE COUNTRY AT LEAST ONCE IN MY LIFE DAMMIT!!! Wish me some serious luck guys... I'm going to need it.

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Hahahaha. Nothing like a little randomness to stir things up....
Ugh... I've been studying for my Early Medieval art midterm for hours... my brain feels like Jello... green jello. The lime kind.
The heat in my apartment is broken again. I'm typing in a jacket and a scarf. (I lost my gloves like 2 months ago).
Still no word from the Pont-Aven school... time to open up a can off whup-ass on my teachers who STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN ME MY LETTERS.... grrr...........
I had a wonderful date last night with brendan, jenn, leigh, julie, jon and a few of leigh's friends..... we went to Grasshopper, and then saw Dawn of the Dead which fucking ROCKED MY WORLD.....
Time to get out of my frozen apartment... I can't take it anymore!!

Going home... I am happy to come home, but it just hits me.... no one's around. I have not kept in touch with any of my friends, except maybe for the few I see online. It's my fault I guess, but then there's that whole suspicion of, 'why has no one bothered to stay in touch with me either?' I don't know, it's a depressing thing to just have that hit you... the fact that all of my friends are just moving on with their lives, which I guess I'm not really a part of anymore.
At least I'll have some time to study for my midterms......
I'm waiting to hear about my application to the Pont-Aven School in France.... i sent it out a few days ago, and I've been nervous as all hell that I won't get in. I had to send the application in without my letters of recommendation, because, as you probably all know, art teachers are in space 90% of the time, and forget pretty much everything you ask them to do.... please please please please let me get in...............

Anybody gonna be around this week?????
SPRING BREAK!!!! WOOOOOOO!!!!

Today started out so horrible.....I went to work in the worst mood... just not wanting to deal with people at all... Plus I have to work the whole weekend, and I was pretty pissed about not getting to go out... But Brendan came back towards the end of my shift and brought me an orchid... my favorite flower.... I swear I'm going to marry that boy. :) Plus the Mr. Sparkle episode of the simpsons is on. Sweet.

"He boasts that he will banish dirt to the land of wind and ghosts. Your dishes are very lucky, Mr. Simpson."

Fuck Greenpeace. Yes. I mean it. Fuck Greenpeace. I've been trying for months to end my stupid membership, and no one calls me back, picks up the phone or anything. (I was stupid enough to say I would join, and they would automatically take 15 dollars out of my account a month. It didn't sound like a lot at the time, but I've been so goddamn broke lately that it's just been such an annoying hassle.) Don't get me wrong. I love what they do, which is why I gave them money. ( I didn't even slow down for the save the children people! Ha. I'm going to hell.)
So I'm giving them one more chance and writing an angry letter. Fucking hippies.
Fuck my insurance company too. I like how I go to get my birth control 4 months ago and they were like 'oh yea, your company covers it. fifteen dollars.' And I get a fucking bill this morning for $130. What the hell am I even supposed to do about that. I don't even have $130. I am so fucking sick of all this shit. So I called them too. I don't know what good that's even going to do. I don't know jack about insurance. Fuck that. I'm not even going to use the stupid insurance if they're just going to spring some bill on me months later anyway.
I am pissed off. Somebody cheer me up.

"Who are they dad?"
"They're hippies, son." -King of the hill

Mmm..... Step aerobics.
I had an awesome day in painting ..... which means I'll actually have something to show for midterm reviews.... woo-hoo! Can life get any better?

Dude. Can you believe it? It wasn't even that bad! The lady that pierced me was fucking awesome. Like the friendliest woman I've ever met. She even invited me and Jenn to her band's show next friday.
I am getting such a crazy migraine right now..... Whenever the weather gets all shitty like this, my head feels like it's going to explode..... grrrrrrrr...

Hood ornament
Oh man. I haven't been pierced in almost 2 years, and here I am, going today with Jenn to get the mother of all piercings. Eek!
WISH ME LUCK.

So once again I get convinced to not go to the gym....grrr.... I can almost hear myself getting fatter.... And still no food for Lucy. Damn you Shaws. (I'm sorry Lucy!!!!) Well. I put like half the bag of hay I have in her cage, and I just gave her a bunch of carrots. So she won't starve.
Off to Stop and Shop.... (fingers crossed)

Why is it whenever I drop something in the bathroom it always ends up next to the toilet??? Oh well... I guess it was time for a new toothbrush anyway....
Also, I'm fucking sick of all of these realtors coming into my room when I'm not around... I got back today and there were muddy footprints all over the floor and the door was wide open.... good thing I left a bunch of my thongs hanging from the doorknob....

Mmmm.... eating carrots with paint thinner all over my hands....
So, happy valentine's day, a few days late. Brendan and I went on an actual date to Buddha's (there goes the last of both our money) which was pretty cute. I miss going on dates all the time. I guess it's easier in the warm weather when there's plenty of free stuff to do.... Now going out is pretty limited to restaurants or movies.
My mom came to visit yesterday... so we went out and got sushi and food/bedding for Lucy. (Ok the pet store in allston... the only one in like a 50 mile radius of my house is so rediculously overpriced. 30 freaking bucks for a bag of wood chips?? Come on!!!!) My mom is the greatest. I wish my family (or anybody for that matter) would visit more often.
I spent all day today running all over boston, trying to get art supplies, and working on my "series" project for class. It was great jsut working all day with no one in the studio, but god dammit I miss my walkman :( It's so much harder to get into work with no music......)
my feet kill....
shower then work......

"If a woman says something's not funny, you'd better not laugh your ass off." -Homer

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Current Music: Incubus - A crow to the left of the murder

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